Friday, October 29, 2010

MY 30 DAYS OF TRUTH!!

In my last post I said that I had seen alot of bloggers doing this 30 Days of Truth. Bloggers will answer questions a day at a time or a on a day that they are able to get to the next question. I will let you know that I may not get to a question a day but I will do my best. I want to Thank Stephanie Thigpen who inspired me to do this with he answer to question number one. There were similar things in my life that related to her story. She has a great blog called Polos, Pearls, & Pacifiers. Her blog link is http://stephaniert90.blogspot.com/. When you have a chance you should visit and say hello.

I'm going to answer question #1 tonight to start my 30 Days of Truth. I do want to let you all know that I believe in honesty. When I say something it's what I mean. No tall tails or lies because I would not like that to be told to me. Here we go

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.

I have to agree with Stephanie that hate is a strong word. My Grandmother says that all the time. The one thing that I do not like about myself is my Mental Illness. Yes, I can actually say that I have this disease. This disease has made my life very hard to deal with. I suffer from Major Depression, Anxiety and Panic Attacks. I have had depression since the early 1990's then in the early 2000's is when I started getting panic attacks and having the anxiety. I can honestly say that during those years alot of bad things kept happening in my life. If it wasn't one thing it was another. I won't bore you with the details because I could probably sit here and write you a book.

I don't like this disease because it can make you so depressed that you sleep for days, cry at almost anything and miss alot of family events. My family is the most important to me and I get more depressed when I can't even leave my home to go somewhere with my children. My children know all about it and have been the best with accepting it. My husband makes sure that I take all my medicines so I can be as normal as can be. When I am doing good I make sure that I spend every moment with my kids, husband and grandson.

So there is what I dislike about me. I'm not ashamed to say that I have this disease. The only thing that I would like for people to know is that I'm not contagious and I'm a normal person besides my mental disease. I have lost friends and snubbed by some people that I have worked with in the past. I want people to know and like me for me.

Thanks for reading!!

Here are the 30 questions that I will be answering in my 30 Days of Truth.

Day 1: Something you hate about yourself.


Day 2: Something you love about yourself.

Day 3: Something you have to forgive yourself for.

Day 4: Something you have to forgive someone for.

Day 5: Something you hope to do in your life.

Day 6: Something you hope you never have to do.

Day 7: Someone who has made your life worth living for.

Day 8: Someone who made your life hell, or treated you like shit.

Day 9: Someone you didn’t want to let go, but just drifted.

Day 10: Someone you need to let go, or wish you didn’t know.

Day 11: Something people seem to compliment you the most on.

Day 12: Something you never get compliments on.

Day 13: A band or artist that has gotten you through some tough ass days. (write a letter.)

Day 14: A hero that has let you down. (letter)

Day 15: Something or someone you couldn’t live without, because you’ve tried living without it.

Day 16: Someone or something you definitely could live without.

Day 17: A book you’ve read that changed your views on something.

Day 18: Your views on gay marriage.

Day 19: What do you think of religion? Or what do you think of politics?

Day 20: Your views on drugs and alcohol.

Day 21: (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Day 22: Something you wish you hadn’t done in your life.

Day 23: Something you wish you had done in your life.

Day 24: Make a playlist to someone, and explain why you chose all the songs. (Just post the titles and artists and letter)

Day 25: The reason you believe you’re still alive today.

Day 26: Have you ever thought about giving up on life? If so, when and why?

Day 27: What’s the best thing going for you right now?

Day 28: What if you were pregnant or got someone pregnant, what would you do?

Day 29: Something you hope to change about yourself. And why.

Day 30: A letter to yourself: tell yourself EVERYTHING you love about yourself.

2 comments:

Jasmine Wilmany said...

Thank you for your honesty. I understand what you are going through. I know what it's like for people to say things like, "I'm too busy to be depressed". But you explained it very well and are right about it being a disease and not a choice!

stampinlynn said...

And the truth shall set you free WTG there girl tfs